by Dennis Rhodes
For the last hour my wife and I were in an intense time of prayer. The Lord was shining light on areas of darkness and controlling iniquities in my spirit that I inherited from my forefathers and also in the womb.One thing was this curse of always being an outsider. Always feeling like any community I am in rejects me, whether a town,a business, a team,a church and my family. I am 54 and have always felt marginalised and ended up out on the edge all the time.
Always reaching for a new slant on a teaching which only ever marginalises me more and ostracises me from others.
Traced it to Freemasonry oaths being kept secret from family, wife and all.
Now just came to the computer and found Lois inviting me into a community. Made me weep for joy.
I believe that this coming year is going to be so awesome! Since discovering Arthur Burk's teaching about a month back so many areas of stagnation and "stuckness" have begun to give way to a new authority and sense of God being Father and actually walking with me as if He is pleased with me.(sounds silly I know)
My life like so many has been a mess, even since coming to Jesus at age 28. Wandering around like a vagabond, wearing spirit labels, being driven by iniquities and things I could not discern in me....even though I seem to have been given so much.
I have no job, we are in debt. We have not fellowshiped in 5 years anywhere. I have no friends, not one.No one encourages me in the flesh..could go on and on...Even attempted suicide twice in the last 5 years.But God!! But God!! He just will not let me go.
I am called to restore others. Me the mess restore others. When I hear Arthur speak about you may be able be a lone ranger and fulfil your birthright...I think of me...but then he says if you want to impact communities you need to be in a team of people...I always squirm. Roots of Rejection have had a firm grip in me for so long I had begun to think I would die without ever fulfilling my birthright.
Despair, hopelessness, worthlessness, etc etc...all have been my daily companions.
I think it is time to change my friends and get among some people who have hope!
Love to you all here.